I found myself in breathwork for many reasons BUT what I didn't realise is where the breath would take me. I was in burnout. I was stressed and in despair. My mind was in overdrive and I was hurt and not knowing what to do to feel better. My only saviour felt like my horses but what a lot to load on to them! I was running a very successful business, just about functioning, with my main aim to please and do right by everyone else. I was at the bottom of this list of importance. 5 years on since my first ever breathe unexpectedly at a Cacao Ceremony and how life has changed. How I have changed! From breather to breath-worker.
The breath took me back to the beginning. Back to that little one. She was holding all of my pain. All of the disappointments. All of the lack of love. It all began at the start and so the start is where the breath took me. When someone let me down it felt enormous. It felt like a huge disappointment. My reaction and feeling was so much bigger than the actual event. When the unravelling began, back to childhood, I realised the disappointment the deep hurt was old. It was all of life's disappointments and hurt not just this one event.
What I have learnt, I'm not sure words can do it justice. What I feel is a different level of grounded. A background strength that thankfully never leaves me no matter what chaos is erupting around me. The reality is I realised that people lashing out at others, is just that person telling you they are in pain. When you can see that you can empathise with a feeling you once knew. A pain that had become your everyday partner. Life still has challenges of course it does, that is why we came to the earth. To learn. To evolve. So when the challenges hit I look at them differently. I feel them differently and so I react differently. They don't wound me any more. In-fact the most wonderful feeling happens!! I feel empathy for the situation, and if its an upset person lashing out I recognise their pain. Hurt people - Hurt People.
I now feel compelled to help others. To help YOU to function in your life, your career, your home, your family. Functioning in quite a harsh world when you want to just be you, can feel overwhelming. BUT a promise I can make to you is you can feel differently. Life can change. A bit of time, commitment, courage and an open heart is all you will really need.